today go ACJC fun o rama so fun sia ... so many AIC lol ^^ ... we spent all of YF $50 lol thx YF (Ran spent the most de :X) ... so many many girls to seeeeeeeeeee wheeeeee :X ... so surprised that i saw the type that i saw 2 years ago only shorter version :X ... looks like ACJC wun change much after all haha ... wheee finally got my own thumb drive ... and its soooooo tiny >< ...

anyway ... i'll stop blogging for now cause exams and need to spend time to change my background pic and layout ... thx YF JS Henry TC YG for their feedback ^^ ... i'll remember CRAP ^^ and will produce a better blog !!! ...

cya all for now ^^ ... i'll be back with Love part 4 maybe in 2 to 3 weeks time !!! i'll change my blog URL on tue so that ppl wun see my progress :X ...

hmmm ... today i'll talk about the types of love ... i'm hungry :X ... must eat !!! ... there are alot types of love ... so many until i can't say every type here ... i'll only go through the few common types ...

first of all ... family love ... for those that dun have a good family background ... dun tell me that your family got no love or what ... every family has love ... its only up to individual to discover it and to open it up ... every parents would want the best for their child ... its for your own good !!! :X familiar huh this phrase ... some might think that its not for their own good ... but put this one side ... parents really have you in their hearts when they say it ... whether you do it or not is another story ... most important is to know that they have you in their hearts ... more on family relationship will come in later posts ... do stay tune ^^ ...

couples love or for some ppl BGR (not blue green red but boy girl relationship) ... this is the love that alot ppl are seeking for and at the same time the love that alot ppl have ... i dun need to explain this bah -_- ... i'm sure everyone knows ... most likely lah ... most ppl will experience it once in their life(MOST LIKELY) ... its hard to express it for the first time ... harder to say it out and hardest to maintain it ... next post i'll gonna branch out this love ...

well other types of love include car love (love for cars) ... computer games love ... animal love (some ppl like this cat more than that one and not cat like cat -_-) ... favouritism love (e.g teacher prefer this student) ... handphones love ... relatives love ... study love ... school love ... so many types of love ... its up to you all to see which one you all want ^^ ...

side track abit ... finally year 2 over le ... then next week exams ... my target ... ASE B+ MATHS B+ HFEM A RWP A MCT A ASMP A ... hope i can get it gambate !!!

hmmm ... today gonna explain how love 'works' based on what i've figured out ... everyone will in one point of their life would try and figure out how come someone can like this object but yet you don't like it ... some ppl like certain idols and some dun like them ... very mysterious why this will happen rite ? after all we are the same species and should have the same liking ...

we all have a heart ... a spiritual one ... even non-living things have a heart ... what i believe is (this would be VERY complicating)... this heart is split into 2 parts ... we call one part IN and other part OUT ... and in the IN part ... it is splited into more parts ... the OUT part doesn't have any inner parts ... the OUT part is full of ' small hearts' and the IN part when we are born have no ' small hearts' ... when we see something rite ... that thing is giving out 'small hearts' from the OUT part ...

these 'small hearts' fly to us and goes into our spiritual heart ... so it sees if we like or dislike the thing ... if we like the object the 'small hearts' would then go into our IN part and fit into the part where it is suppose to be ... for example i like this chair so the 'small hearts' goes into IN and in the part 'chair' ... same goes for shirt cars pillows water people everything you can think of ... what if we dun like the thing ? our IN part rejects the 'small hearts' and of course the 'small hearts' is left to drift around the air and lost forever ... it doesn't go back to the OUT part of the thing ... the OUT part is always producing 'small hearts' so it wun run out ... confusing ehh ? ... so thats how ppl like or dislike objects ... why some ppl like some idols ? cause they put them into the idol part of IN ... dislike them then reject lor ... goes for songs ... movies ... aiya ... everything in this galaxy ... same goes for family friends ice creams ^^ ...

dun understand anything ? feel free to ask me ... i'll draw it out and explain until you know ... its a very important concept ...

this whole week will be about the big topic love ^^ ... why ? cause its valentines day yesterday :X ... love is a very big subject ... and i'm going to split it into alot parts ... so here's part 1 ...

have you ever wonder what is love ? ... why must we love ? ... why we love certain ppl or things and hate others ? ... why we just can't fall in love with someone ? ... the next few posts would address these few things and more lah (i'm a very wordy person :D) ... to start it off ... what is love ? ... people over the few thousands years haven been trying to define what is love ... of course me myself have been doing that for the last 5 years ... i kept trying to find out what is love ... what is the definition but i can't ... until last year i went into deeper thought and finally realise what is love (in my terms) ... there is no meaning for love ... it is just a word that ppl use to ... you know for this thingy ... as everyone know love is very great ... so if it has a meaning ... it would be meaningless ... wah so hard to explain -_- ... thats what i believe lah ...

of course love have feelings but the definition of love is not to have feelings ... we can't define love ... cause if we were to define it with words ... it would lose its mysterious side ... i'm sure everyone wants to crack this mystery of love ... the power and force behind it ... what i can say is ... its all built in every human beings ... a newborn baby would already know how to love ...

a quote from Final Fantasy 8 "life is so strage ... it's not like anyone teaches you, but you end up falling in love?" ... we cannot teach anyone to love nor make them love ... its inborn ... no matter how hard ppl try to teach the 'correct' way of loving ... it wun work at all ... we can only teach something that is defined with words ... love is hidden inside us ... it is only when we want to show it ... when we will keep it back ... to be continued ...

today is valentines day ... the day where lovers spend their day with each other (most likely) ... the day where alot of secret admirers appear from no where ... a day where you see alot of ppl holding flowers and gifts walking on the street ... the day where there will be too many couples on the street and of course the day where singles (like me :X) dread and will be sitting at home trying to figure out what to do for this day ...

well ... i know you all waiting for me to say what my great plans are ... wait lah ... slowly one by one ... actually this day i dunno should i be happy or sad ? ... happy cause i dun need to plan where to go ... dun need to crack my head for what to buy ... or sad cause no company and no one to spend this special day with ... no one to be with and express my love (provided i have one) ... of course maybe i wun enjoy this day cause i ALWAYS dunno what to buy for ppl >< ... well cause i dunno what they want or need ...

couples must take this day as an important day ... the day where there is the atmosphere ... only once per year ... treasure this day well and always remember this day for some ppl (like me) can't enjoy it that much ... not everyone is lucky to have a bf/gf (eventhough most ppl have ... even pri sch kids -_-) ...

the best gift i saw today was balloons made into a shape of flowers ... not those twisting type ... 5 petals and one middle part (dunno call what ... forget my bio le) ... it was found in Bukit Batok bus interchange ... of course is a girl holding it ... and now for my great plans ... i spend my valentines with !!! car 37 at BBDC Honda City SDM7915Z ... wheeeee how fun -_- ... lala~ wishing everyone that i know, my close friends, a bit close friends, normal friends, a bit not close friends, unclose friends, far friends, online friends, dream friends, fake friends, unfriend friends and everytype of friend friends and everyone that i dunno ... a wonderful valentines day !!! enjoy the week ahead~ ...

since tmr is valentines day today's post would be a special one ... of course it has nth got to do with my great plans for tmr ... i'll say what my great plans are tmr ... as the title above says, i'm not going to criticize any couples or what ... just gonna write how to maintain a relationship ... most ppl will think who am i to write so much when i didn't have any relationship before ... but i dare say i know alot because i always ask ppl around me the reason they break up and from there i learn and analyze ... thats why i like to know how ppl think so that i can try and improve this world ... ppl do talk to me about relationships too ... i think that a relationship is good cause it really teaches so many things about life ... things that you can never learn anywhere else in the world ... so lets begin !!!

what i believe is couples must have understanding ... they can have all sorts of quarrels, misunderstands every thing ... but if they are understanding to each other then all problems will be solved ... how many times have you seen couples on the street ignoring each other just because the guy or girl dun wanna go that place ... even if they have interest differences they still can be together cause they know each other ... they understand each other's needs and they of course give and take ...

love love and love ... must love each other ... cause love can overcome everything ... love can make ppl do wonders ... love induce courage ... basically everything in this world needs love ... without love life is hard ... of course we leave the hurt part for some other day ... express your love for each other ... dun hide it for the other person can't read your mind ... one will not know something that one dun know ...

communicate well ... like i said above ... you must say it out if not the other party wun know ... talk your problems and solve it ... dun drag anything for it will hurt both parties ... always always talk talk talk ... it is also a chance for him/her to know you better ... to know you better so that they can love you better ...

of course most ppl say love is blind but it is not ... love just accepts everything ... accept the bad points of your parter ... and encourage them to show their good points more often ... and maybe if you want you can try and talk to them about their bad points ... of course no one can be perfect ... but maybe it will improve it ? ... maybe it will make a relationship better ? ... of course some might say that if talk to much the relationship will be destroyed ... if it really does happens it shows where the weak point is in the relationship ... its good to discover problems ...

people meet because its their fate ... but who do you wanna keep in your heart is your choice ... right or wrong choice doesn't matter ... what matters most is to cherish this choice for no one else can replace this choice ... happy valentines day !!! ^^ ...

today is a very bad day !!! yesterday i accidently drag and put my folder into another folder ... then i of course cancel the operation lah ... so i didn't know that dragging would cause the folder to be cut and paste and not copy ... then i went into that folder and deleted my folder cause i tot is copy so it would become extra de ... but then i suddenly realise that something wrong ... so i cancel the delete operation ... who knows those files that are deleted le are gone and cannot find in recycle bin !!! my RWP report gone !!! AHHHHHHHH !!!!!! ... microsoft windows is so buggy ... those files i think became lost files ... didn't microsoft made a solution to this ? ... they managed to overlook this ... such a big loophole ... stupid ang moh ... BUG BUG BUG !!! ... then lunch time i can't find my spoon !!! AHHHHHHHHHh missing again ... stupid stupid !!! why my life today so sucky >< ... baka baka baka !!! so now trying to recover lost files ... oh well another 2 hours to wait ... ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

hmmm .... today went shuqun alumni band and i can say after so long didn't play my tone sucks ... oh well ... sight read 5 jap pieces and i kind of like space battleship. and we play tong hua too lol ... so nice sia ... and of course we played the famous cockroach song ^^ WHEEEE ... one of my favourite songs ... ma-i-a-hi ma-i-a-hu ma-i-a-ho ma-i-a-ha-ha wheeeee ^^ ... then went westmall with joanna yao tong and henry ... they go buy things while i go there walk walk see see ... also nth much to see de anyway ... then later i asked joanna who she think UIC is ... lol and she said she have to think first ... really want to know how ppl think ... how their mind works ... joanna i'll be waiting for your guess and 4 more mths ah ^^ lol :X ... oh and very late dinner tonight ... cause i stayed home and do RWP -_- ... almost overshot 1500 words ... lala~

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh today i saw UIC in SP wheeeee ... i wun say where in SP i saw her cause the time is not right lol :p ... so surprised that i saw her lol ... now i know my mind works le ... the more you want it to happen the more it wun happen ... the more you dun expect it to happen the more it will come true ... thats how i set the future ... most ppl wun understand what i mean ... maybe next time i'll explain the power i have that is inborn ...

anabelle tay OOPS i mean kelvin tay asked me UIC is the one i like or just the type of ice cream that i go for ... i told him "is not i like ... is ... i dunno how to explain ..." well ... actually i also dunno ... i can't say UIC is the type that i like cause the past already proven it ... or maybe ice creams that look like that ? ... also not true ... character ? figure ? tone of voice ? hair ? eyes ? ... all nope ... the answer is very simple and no i'm not going to ask you all to guess ... its just because UIC is unique ... why unique ? well i also dunno why ... thats what i feel about UIC ... the uniqueness in UIC ... words can't explain it ... only feelings can ... thats why i will never say what my taste is ... ppl will never know what is my type of girls ... cause everybody got different sense of uniqueness ...

hmmm ... last thing to say ... i blog because ... life is too beautiful to forget to keep it to yourself ... thats why i share the beauty with you all ... enjoy the weekend !!! ...

hmmm i'm gonna start a new series of stuff ... i call it ponder about life ... 1st one was about perfection ... 2nd one giving and taking ... so today ... the 3rd one will be on smokers ...

why smokers ? ... because they irritate my nose ... as everyone knows that smoking is not good for health or to other ppl ... but somehow they still keep on smoking ... with the product nicoretine (dunno how to spell ... the one you see in the advertisement with that guy going outside to smoke on a windy and rainy day then got hit by lots of flying stuff ...) in the market now ... we will see which are the people who truely wants to quit smoking ... it doesn't have any withdrawal symptoms so ppl wun have the reason not to quit smoking cause "its hard to quit smoking" ... some just want to act cool or because of peer pressure ...

now the government says that no smoking in bus stops but i still see some id**ts smoking in the bus stop ... especially at dover ... can't they even understand ? ... and they act as if its totally alright to smoke there ... so irritating ... SP chairman should come out and catch them more often ... i heard from my teacher last time got SP staff take camera and go to the bus stop to catch ppl smoking ... one guy said he's not from SP (but actually he is from SP) and the video was sent to all staff to identify the guy ... in the end he got kicked out of poly ...

i once saw this sec school guy around my area ... he was smoking when i walk past and he blow the smoke to 'act cool' ... zzz id**t sia him ... cool my foot sia ... act like an a**hole ... so last words for all ...

smoking is cool ... lung cancer is EVEN MORE COOL !!! ...

today my first SP excursion ^^ to science center lol ... so secondary school ... went and watch fighter pilot in omnimax ... so freaking cool sia ... but hor when the show start then got preview ... so scary sia lol ... can feel like you dropping down ... maybe not used to that form of seeing yet ... but when the movie started not scary le ... very nice show ... can see F-15, F-18, B-2, F-117A, Typhoon, A10, Harrier, F-16 and so many others ... first time see so many fighter planes in one show lol ...

then went to RSAF talk ... funny guy ... he said about the air refueling ... if you have a fetish to insert your stick into others hole you can become a pilot who does air refueling ... so damn funny ... he so horny sia ... lol but all for the sake of making the presentation not boring ... oh well lol ...

what i mean by taking is ... always wants to have the advantage and doesn't back down ... maybe an explanation won't give the full idea ... so an example ... person A always ask person B for help and B always helps ... but when B doesn't help A would keep disturbing B ... when B needs the help of A ... A dun care at all and refuse at all cost ... this is what i mean by taking ...

giving on the other hand is always giving out their time or help to other ppl ... its like give in to other ppl ... a simple example is donation or help others without any self benefits or doesn't reap any rewards ... the only thing they will achieve is self contentment and of course a boost to your character ...

have you ever encounted someone who likes to disturb or hit ppl but when you hit or disturb them back they'll get angry ? ... its like you can do it on others but others cannot do it on you ... these type of ppl can't survive in the society and i hate this character ... maybe some might think that i do that but no ... when i lame with ppl i can accept them lame-ing back at me ... only i know how to twist it back :p ... its a skill to twist words ...

i dun expect everyone to be always giving cause if everyone is giving then who will be doing the taking ... of course we MUST be giving when the situation is right ... even if the situation is not right we can still give ... we should be giving more than what we are taking ... i've learnt to do that since i was young as my father kept telling me ... it really helps in wherever i am ... i've learnt to accept alot of things ... and i really hope ppl will try to be more giving ...

on a lighter note ... my friends say rong zu er looks like aya ueto >< ... well in my opinion ... she does look like aya ... but ... only at a certain angle with a little likeness ... went fc6 for gems test but no see UIC lala~ ... the answer is there already ...

yes this is the 3rd post for today ... cause i'm bored ? ... today dunno what happen to me ... go fc1 for lunch then i crazy le ... go buy celery + bitter gourd juice ... freaking bitter !!! ... but still somehow managed to drink it finish lol ... i'll never drink it again -_- ...

HFEM tmr die ahhhh !!! ppt all not ready ... stupid sia ... schedule so tight de no time to do ... and now i'm so freaking tired ... cause 4 am wake up then 11 sleep ... 5 hours of sleep only ... just now in lecturer i almost slept ... sooooooooo sleepy ... but still must play :p ... lala~

lol my RWP(report writing and presentation) plagiarism (see if anything matches anything) test 0% so pro hor ... i wrote on flute and word limit 1500 only ... i only at the beginning 900+ words le ... sian dunno how to make it below 1500 ... have to cut alot things le ... oh well ... and yes i'm at my RWP lesson now writing this post ... sian lah got nth better to do lol ... so damn bored ...

hope can get A for RWP ... why A ? looks better lor and my GPA will increase ... if get B GPA will drop by alot ... then most worry about my ASE (aircraft servomechanism engineering) ... so hard + lecturer dunno talking what ... maybe i'm just lazy :p ...

still have to write alot crap for my RWP then still got HFEM (human factor and error management) project to do ... then still got MCT(microcontroller technology) lab PBIL (problem based independant learning) to do ... so hard sia ... must make DO RE MI when press button ... then 7 segment display must also display something ... then this week got ASE lab test + interview ... die le lah ... then now flu cause everytime exam coming sure will fall ill de ... dunno why ... always de ... if dun fall ill then wun do well for exam ... thats all for now ... go next lesson le ...

two videos of a cat made by me in malacca :D ...

http://www.youtube.com/w/cat-with-plastic-on-head?v=DUGwJ7xXync

http://www.youtube.com/w/timid-cat?v=owwtF63Ce98

and yes i wrote this post at 4 am in the morning cause i can't sleep !!!!!!! save meeeeeeeeeee ... ahhhhh

hmmm ... i got a bad habit that i can't change ... whenever i talk to ppl or ppl talk to me i just can't bring myself to look them in the eyes ... i dunno why ... maybe its cause i'm scared to know that they're focusing on me ... maybe its because i dun dare to look at them ... maybe its because i'm afraid i'll see their deep side through their eyes ... maybe i just don't dare ... maybe i dun want ppl to know the deep part of me ...

i'm nowadays forcing myself to look them in the eyes ... but i can only do that for a short while ... after a while an unknown force will pull my eyes away from them ... of course i'm listening to them ... its just that ... i dunno ... i like to look at ppl's eyes ... i stare at it but when the other party looks back i'll immediately turn my eyes away ... maybe just because i dun want ppl catching me looking at them ? ... or maybe its human nature ... you can tell alot from their eyes ... the intensity will show everything ... how the person feels how the person thinks ...

so i guess i must try and give more eye contact as lots of ppl say ... when you talk give eye contact ... its a form of manners ... so when you catch me not giving eye contact when talking ... it doesn't mean i'm not interested or not paying attention in the conversation ... it just means that ... well i also dunno what it means :p ...

when ppl ask us to play perfect, do things perfect, speak perfect english all those perfect stuff do you all ever wonder how to be perfect ? ... how many ppl in this world actually wants to be perfect ? i'm sure there are lots of ppl that want to be perfect ... but aren't humans contradicting themselves with the phrase "nobody is perfect" ...

the perfect one is a nobody ... how come so many ppl wants to be a nobody ? ... a nobody where no one cares, loves or even bothers ... why must ppl aim for perfection when in the end turns out to be nothing that people remembers ... scientist don't invent things that are perfect ... the light bulb is not perfect ... airplanes are not perfect ... even science is not perfect ... from the past until now no one can make anything perfect so why do humans now want perfection ...

but in the view of a relationship ... the one that we love are perfect ... perfect not in our eyes but in our hearts ... nothing can be perfect in our eyes cause humans are too troublesome and picky ... they always aim for the top ... but our hearts ... sees the deep and true side of everyone ...

perfection we can't aim ... but we can aim to be close to perfect ... i once saw "practice doesn't make perfect ... perfect practice makes perfect" ... quite true huh ... a practice that is nothing of course will result in nothing ... so when we ask for something ... remember not to perfect it ...

why this title ? ... cause last year on april fools day ... went to watch Install with my friend ... didn't know what show was that ... is he ask me watch de ... i'm very innocent :p ... it was then i got to know who aya ueto is ... so basically she stole my heart and now i'm without any heart or heartless ...

it was very hard to live without having any feelings for anyone or anything and so i decided to 'remake' one ... i had to make the 'juice' of the heart, which would be the internal stuff of the heart (it cannot be hollow as an empty heart can't feel anything) ... i had to make the 'casing' of the heart too (to contain the 'juice') ... i had completed 86% and i'm tired ...

dun believe i dun have a heart ? ... put your hand on my chest and you can't feel any heartbeat or just a very slight beat cause its 86% done ... in the past i can feel more ... so well ... looks like it really works ... so pls understand ...

i really prefer to like rather than can't be able to ... every relationship would be painful ... but ... 伤口 那么多 已经不怕再痛 ... 没地方可以再受伤了 ... i dun blame them for only me myself can hurt myself ... anything dun understand can ask me ...

ice cream ice cream ... alot ppl still dunno what the real meaning is ... so for the sake of everyone ... i shall say in full detail what ice cream means in my terms ...

ice cream is a collective term or in simpler words another word for a living thing on earth ... some ppl know what ice cream is but alot still dunno ... so as we all know ... there are lots of ice cream in this world ... each and every person will have a different perception of different ice cream ... of course each ice cream will be unique to different person ...

for me ... there are alot of UIC but then ... there will be only one that i will choose ... of course doesn't mean a UIC will always be a UIC ... for things does change ... but now ... i've choosen one but i can't do anything ... for my heart is stagnant ... it doesn't contain anything or simple terms 'feelingless' ... more info will be in future posts :p ...

UIC is not who most ppl think it is ... eventhough GYM did guess it right cause she guess by saying everybody name ... so not counted :X ... thats all i will say for now ... until the time is close ... joanna remember my ice cream for my bday !!! :X

soooooooo happy today ... went to suntec again with my friends to play de machine again ... this time ... very good ... got a cat and another pooh !!!





(cat ... took $7 only LOL ... incredible ...)







(pooh playing flute !!! ... this time took $26 cause keep aim wrong ...)





ppl must read my blog more often ... contains alot interesting things plus things that ppl never knew about me ... oh and i realise that business side can use normal msn de ... so good ... cause saw UIC online in school in msn ... hmmm interesting hor ...