i think i should end the UIC thingy now ... dun ask me the reason why ... i will not say at all ... but i'm sure ppl are smart enough to guess why ...

actually in the beginning its supposed to be a game ... this whole UIC thingy ... a game of finding out who is UIC ... of course she is unique ... so let me begin my story ... my evil plot ... well not exactly evil ...

long long time ago ... i heard from joanna that they playing o2jam ... and since last time i play before o2jam abit nia ... so i decided to play too ... hey i got to know that she is playing with them too :X ... i even heard she got problem patching lol ... oh well ... so yeah i started playing cause of her ... unbelievable ? ... well its my evil plan ... muahahahahahahaha ... somehow or rather i got her msn ... how ? ... easy ... i ask joanna if she's playing and she ask me ask the rest or something ... then i dun have the rest email add mah ... then she gave me ivy one first ... then somehow or rather they add ppl in the conversation until i got her msn ... yeah thats how i got her msn ... you can say its a plan by me or maybe its just what it is supposed to be ...

first time i talk to her was jan 14 2006 ... WOW how i remember ? ... there's something call chat logs :X ... ahhhh its more than a year lol ... AND WTF WTF ... first time i added her ... her name is already in my msn nick LOLOLOLOL ... `[()] [-, <<< this is inverted YQ ... i wonder how many ppl actually realise it ... sad to say ... no one actually did realise it ... i like to make ppl think ... it helps them create more brain cells :X ... stupid blogger eat my post -_- ... have to retype a few stuff ...

the game is supposed to end at MD 30 ... cause dun have the chance to see her anymore so abit like no point continuing UIC thingy ... officially it has ended ... i didn't want to play the game anymore ... but that time at vivo see her ... then i nth to say ... i didn't plan anything after MD 30 ... cause well its tiring to plan ... i know i got psyche powers but also dun need use until like that ... back to story ... dunno if its a good thing or bad thing for the chance to see her after MD 30 ... seems like a bad thing to me ... yes eventhough it gives me the chance to talk to her but ... now ... thinking back ...

... i rather not ... i rather leave everything the way it was ... and maybe one day ... someone else who is more unique will replace the one in my eyes ... but ... i doubt so ... why ? ... my eyes are sharp ... as long as i'm not at home ... i'll be looking around ... looking at girls of course :X ... i've seen so many girls ... none can match up to her ... ahhhh this is long ... oh ya another thing ... why am i blogging all the things that happen ? ... because if i leave it in my mind i will keep thinking about it ... so its better to get this out of my mind and into words ...

what am i going to do ? ... its a secret ^^ ... i'm always that secretive ... time to reveal a few codes in my nick ...

UIC is 161936251118 ... <<< using keyboard go to the number position 6 and one down you get Y ... number position 9 one down you get o and so on ... easy hor ...

why queue 30 and 941 ... <<< this easier ... thanks to ah bao ... 3rd one from the word why queue is the letter y ... 0 is o ... and is n ... 9 is g 4 is from the word so is q and 1 is i ...

looking at 679863551988 ... <<< this one is actually quite easy ... using number pad ... 7 is the top row ... so 6 from the left is y ... 8 is also top row ... so 9 is o ... we can use either 7 8 or 9 for the top row ... same for mid and bottom row ...

why oh and geez queue eye <<< easiest ... y o n g q i ...

,-]()/c3 [()]`! <<< of course this is her name ... mirrored + inverted ...

i'm so free to do such things hor ... actually got one more ... but i'm not going to reveal it ... thats the hardest one ... ahh ... yes i'm a bad guy ... i'm evil ... i'm a stalker ...

but all i wanted was to get to know you ... to look at you ... to let you know you are unique ...

oyasumi ...

from one litre of tears episode 10

The other side of suffering
Ikeuchi Aya

Everyone feels pain.
But surely, after suffering satisfaction will arrive.
Even with sports, or studying or other ordeals.
With life, it is like that for everyone.
If we can beat the pain, on the other side,
a rainbow of happiness awaits us!
That will definitely become a treasure.
let's believe in that.


step by step
Ikeuchi Aya

When my existence seems to disappear,
I will look for the place where i can do the best i can.
From now on, I'll deliberate slowly.
I won't be impatient.
I won't be greedy.
I won't give up.
Because everyone takes things step by step.

the two poems that i wrote on the main page ... gonna put it as a post so that it is still around ... basically its very easy to solve ...

You fill up my dreams,
on every single night.
No way can i,
go on without you.
Queen of my life,
i need you here.

first letter of each line from top to down ...

I search the world,
quietly finding the one.
Going for unique one,
not the pretty one.
One band prac night,
your eyes caught me.

first letter of each line from down to top ...

i'm supposed to be asleep ... but i can't sleep -_- ... and i'm super bored now ... ahhhhh ... i dunno what to type ... oh i was surfing around and i realise the biggest mistake i made was to let the whole world know who is UIC ... very very big and grave mistake ... cause i see ppl making fun of her ... zzzzzzz ... pls ppl ... dun talk about this issue ... anyway ... why am i not putting a dp ? ... cause i dun want to ... in her unhappy state she asked me to remove ... and then the next say she apologise and say i can put any pic i want ... but ... from what i think ... is ... (*a side note before i continue ... nth got to do with her ... is just what i think ...) since she didn't want me to put the pic rite ... is what i'm actually thinking ... i mean ... i know she said it when she was unhappy but it does show that she didn't want that pic too ? ... i dun want do things that will make her unhappy ... since she already express that she dun want me to put so i shall not put bah ... dunno lah ... its just what i think ... like i say again ... nth got to do with her ... anyway case close ...

yay my solitaire got high score 9k+ WAHAHAAHHA :X ... yes i still play solitaire ... cause i'm super bored with no games to play ... AHHHHHHH ...


edit : OMG another high score :X ... 11413 and time 65 ... WAHAHAHAAH so pro :X ...

okay ... now i can type better ... 8 am in the morning -_- ... why my display pic (dp) in my msn disappear ? ... very simple ... let me start from the beginning ... i asked her if i can put her pic ... then she say put lor ... okay so i went to find one pic and i use it ... i used the MD 30 pic that you can find ... and after awhile she ask me change ... dunno why ... maybe pic not nice ? ... or maybe didn't want me to put her pic ? ... i really dunno ... someone pls enlighten me ... so the on thur i got bored and decided to go net search for her pic ... well i want to put her pic ... so i find and find and find ... go google and yahoo image and type her name in ... also dun have ... then i went blogger.com to search ... of course lots of post come out ... cause i got read her blog de so i agar agar knows what are her friends name and slowly i found pictures of her ... mind you its 30+ pages of searching at blogger.com ... and when i found her friends blog ... i go through all their archives ... just to find a damn pic !!! ... and some blogs are not friendly ... i even go through other ppl's blog who are not related to her at all ... why ? ... cause i dunno that person not related to her :X ...

so okay lor ... i found the pic le then i use as my dp ... she was not online on thur or maybe she was but i'm asleep ... yesterday ... i came back around night time and i saw her personal message ... then i read her blog ... so i asked her if she is okay ... she just ask me to remove the pic ... and i remove it ... then i decided not to put any dp ... why ? ... dun ask me ... i dunno ...

i know she's unhappy or something ... well her blog says so ... or maybe its something else ... i really dunno ... cause i realise i dunno her at all ... i dunno anything about her ... all i know is she's UIC and thats it ... thats why i'm talking to her ... but am i scaring her by suddenly appearing out of nowhere and keep talking ? ... maybe i am ... now is like so hard to even talk to her ...

she's unhappy or mood swing or pms or whatever i can't help it ... but if she dun talk to me i can't do anything ... maybe i shouldn't talk to her ... maybe in the first place i shouldn't even talk to her ... i dun mind her slow reply or whatever ... but now ... i feel maybe its better not to talk to her ... maybe ... i just want to talk to her ... its that simple ... but such a simply thing i can't achieve ... i asked her if she's okay is because i wanted to care for her ... but seems like i should stick to my own theory of not caring for anyone ... why ? ... i tried it plenty of times on so many ppl they just dun understand it or appreciate it ... thats how this cruel world is made up ... it is part of this world ... a world where caring doesn't work ... they should ban the cartoon carebears !!! ... its pointless since no one actually does that ...

i think i'll leave everything as it is ... maybe she really dun want to talk to me ... i shall remain silent so that everything doesn't get worse ... i'm not blaming her ... everyone is entitled to be unhappy ... to fustrate out their anger ... to do whatever they want or say whatever they want ... they are also entitled to ask ppl to do stuff its only up to us to see whether we want to do or not ... maybe its not meant to be ... maybe ...

the previous post can be totally ignored ... i dunno what is going on ... she's unhappy ... but ...

hmmm ... finally yongqi knows she's UIC ... well i dunno what to say le ... i'll make this short ... sleeping soon ... seems like alot ppl know ... i dunno why they know ... duh is because my nick so obvious -_- ... well purposely de ... actually i want to let her know she is UIC ... why ? ... i'll say the reason later :X ...

oh well ... i'm happy that i can still talk to her :) ... yes really happy ... and happy that i can put her pic too ... something that i wanted to do for a very long time ... last time cause is scared she knows ... now is okay le ... oh well nth to say le ...




i just want to let you know that somewhere in this world ... someone finds that you are unique ...

yesterday went to watch movie with tay and chua ... actually is not watching de ... then chua say if i go then he go ... then i say okay lor ... then i just decided on vivo city ... dunno why ... so we went there to watch movie ... we decided on apocalypto ... dunno why lol ...

then we walk walk blah blah blah ... then at first story i turn around and saw !!! ... yongqi ... wow i was totally shock ... why ? cause i didn't expect to see her there and cause she's UIC ... yeah i reveal it now since those that come to my blog already know that ... i see she also shock to see me there ... then after awhile she wave at me then i still under shock and blur then took quite a while to wave back ... wah i tell you i feel very embarrassed lmao ... dunno why ... wah i really speechless ... is it planned ? ... i dunno ... maybe cause the ppl up there knows that i want to talk to her but i just dun dare to talk to her ... then create this thingy to talk to her ... eventhough only on msn ... why i say that ? ... cause last time everytime i see her she no see me de :X ... so ... i dunno lah ...

back to the movie ... quite nice and exciting ... but not gross enough :X ... its like a totally new style of movie ... i nth to say le :X ...

and i want to complain !!! ... just now go sq alumni band ah ... i wait for that 189 so long then when it comes its like so crowded ... got around 6 ppl get down but 0 ppl get up ... cause the uncle dun want open the door !!! wtf wtf ... and hor the bus is not bendy bus lai de ... is those normal bus ... stupid smrt ... can't they think better ... its peak hours where everyone gets of work and they use such a small bus ... alot times le ... i really nth to say about their planning -_- ... then sometimes when i sit 106 home from sp then like very less ppl de ... they use bendy bus -_- ... nth to say ...

concert finally over ... means no more chance to see her ... oh well ... what can i say ... well ... i didn't take any pic with her ... cause i didn't want to and i dun regret it ... or maybe i should regret it ... i really dunno ... there's nth i can do anyway ... what can i ask for when i dun even talk to her ...

hmmm ... concert over can't see her anymore ... maybe if i'm lucky can see her in sch but i rather not ... actually i dun ask for much ... i just want to see her ... look at her ... gaze at her ... i want to see her expressions actions and of course her full of life eyes ... thats all ... i dun need talk to her or anything else ... i just want to look her ...

there's something which i still dun dare to do ... which is look directly into her eyes ... whenever i'm looking at her then if she suddenly turn around i would immediately look away ... i dunno why ... i just dun dare to stare at her directly ... why ? ... cause i'm afraid ... and weird thing is i talk to alot of girls ... except her ... hmmm ... just kill me ...

looking at her really made me happy ... and it really made my band life wonderful ... at least i can like look forward to see her :X ... oh well ... its my decision all the while but maybe the most regretful thing is not being able to like her ... why ? ... i guess i dun have the courage to like her ... sad but thats life lol ... of course i lost the game ... i lost to myself ... in my life i'm always playing a game with myself ... this time i guess i lost ...

thank you yq for being my eye candy ... you're so unique until no one has ever replace you since the day you are UIC ...

today was the 2nd last chance to see her ... sunday concert is my last chance ... hmm who is the her ? ... i suppose most ppl can figure out with my msn nick ... so i dun need to type it out ... whats so interesting or good about her you guys must be thinking ... well ... the first time she came into the band ... i didn't notice her much ... until one day ... i realise her eyes ... those eyes that i didn't notice before suddenly caught my eye ... from then on ... i started to look at her ... and that started the UIC thingy ...

i love the way when she look at ppl ... there are many times when i was talking to ivy or yimei and she was just beside there ... i just took a glance over and i saw those eyes ... those eyes that were looking at me while i talk ... it was awesome ... those big mysterious magical wonderful eyes ... that started me always wanting to look at her ...

during band prac i would just look over and gaze at her ... whenever she's there i'll be looking at her ... why ? ... it all started with the eyes ... then gradually it form until i love to look at her actions ... her expressions ... and of course her eyes ... i notice alot of expressions that are priceless and of course want to see more of them and those eyes that can communicate just by looking at it ... its very special the way she look at people ... well ... human eyes does show alot of stuff but hers show even more stuff ... i dunno why ... maybe its inborn ? ... or maybe thats just me ...

of course its just looking and not liking ... i'm not gonna go into details about that ... she is unique to the extend that i can't find anyone more unique than her ... she's like the max lvl of uniqueness le ... of course if you talk about pretty there are other girls prettier than her ... but thats not what i'm looking for ... a unique person is always better than a pretty person ... why ? ... unique can only be define by yourself ... while pretty can be define by many ppl ...

the first person to know who is UIC is joanna ... then its yimei then ivy ... 4th faidhi then liting ... 6th one is emily then 7 is joanne ... lol you guys must think i'm crazy to choose those ppl to let them know ... but i always have my reasons and i trust my judgment ...

spinnovex is finally over ... but i still got exhibition at rp on wed >< ... oh well ... let me tell you guys something ... a camera is very useful ^^ ... during the 3 days in spinnovex i took more than 300 pics and a few videos ... WOW ... how useful is my camera !!! ... its has 10x optical zoom and cool sia ... took so many pics of sec sch kids ... yum yum ... i wish i can eat them :X ... the most no. of pics is day 2 ... dunno why ...

hmm should i post a few good shots ? ... or maybe i should post the pics that lp chua and tay wants ... and see if they ever though of my blog to search for the pics ... of course it will be a big give away but i dun care :p ... okay i'll post it yay !!! ... it will be on for 3 days only ... wed thur fri ... gone ... enjoy while it last !!! ...






tay wants the girl in black ... he loves to fantasize ...








BMW girl ... chua wants it ...








lp is greedy ... he wants 2 pics :X ...