okay ... now i can type better ... 8 am in the morning -_- ... why my display pic (dp) in my msn disappear ? ... very simple ... let me start from the beginning ... i asked her if i can put her pic ... then she say put lor ... okay so i went to find one pic and i use it ... i used the MD 30 pic that you can find ... and after awhile she ask me change ... dunno why ... maybe pic not nice ? ... or maybe didn't want me to put her pic ? ... i really dunno ... someone pls enlighten me ... so the on thur i got bored and decided to go net search for her pic ... well i want to put her pic ... so i find and find and find ... go google and yahoo image and type her name in ... also dun have ... then i went blogger.com to search ... of course lots of post come out ... cause i got read her blog de so i agar agar knows what are her friends name and slowly i found pictures of her ... mind you its 30+ pages of searching at blogger.com ... and when i found her friends blog ... i go through all their archives ... just to find a damn pic !!! ... and some blogs are not friendly ... i even go through other ppl's blog who are not related to her at all ... why ? ... cause i dunno that person not related to her :X ...
so okay lor ... i found the pic le then i use as my dp ... she was not online on thur or maybe she was but i'm asleep ... yesterday ... i came back around night time and i saw her personal message ... then i read her blog ... so i asked her if she is okay ... she just ask me to remove the pic ... and i remove it ... then i decided not to put any dp ... why ? ... dun ask me ... i dunno ...
i know she's unhappy or something ... well her blog says so ... or maybe its something else ... i really dunno ... cause i realise i dunno her at all ... i dunno anything about her ... all i know is she's UIC and thats it ... thats why i'm talking to her ... but am i scaring her by suddenly appearing out of nowhere and keep talking ? ... maybe i am ... now is like so hard to even talk to her ...
she's unhappy or mood swing or pms or whatever i can't help it ... but if she dun talk to me i can't do anything ... maybe i shouldn't talk to her ... maybe in the first place i shouldn't even talk to her ... i dun mind her slow reply or whatever ... but now ... i feel maybe its better not to talk to her ... maybe ... i just want to talk to her ... its that simple ... but such a simply thing i can't achieve ... i asked her if she's okay is because i wanted to care for her ... but seems like i should stick to my own theory of not caring for anyone ... why ? ... i tried it plenty of times on so many ppl they just dun understand it or appreciate it ... thats how this cruel world is made up ... it is part of this world ... a world where caring doesn't work ... they should ban the cartoon carebears !!! ... its pointless since no one actually does that ...
i think i'll leave everything as it is ... maybe she really dun want to talk to me ... i shall remain silent so that everything doesn't get worse ... i'm not blaming her ... everyone is entitled to be unhappy ... to fustrate out their anger ... to do whatever they want or say whatever they want ... they are also entitled to ask ppl to do stuff its only up to us to see whether we want to do or not ... maybe its not meant to be ... maybe ...
so okay lor ... i found the pic le then i use as my dp ... she was not online on thur or maybe she was but i'm asleep ... yesterday ... i came back around night time and i saw her personal message ... then i read her blog ... so i asked her if she is okay ... she just ask me to remove the pic ... and i remove it ... then i decided not to put any dp ... why ? ... dun ask me ... i dunno ...
i know she's unhappy or something ... well her blog says so ... or maybe its something else ... i really dunno ... cause i realise i dunno her at all ... i dunno anything about her ... all i know is she's UIC and thats it ... thats why i'm talking to her ... but am i scaring her by suddenly appearing out of nowhere and keep talking ? ... maybe i am ... now is like so hard to even talk to her ...
she's unhappy or mood swing or pms or whatever i can't help it ... but if she dun talk to me i can't do anything ... maybe i shouldn't talk to her ... maybe in the first place i shouldn't even talk to her ... i dun mind her slow reply or whatever ... but now ... i feel maybe its better not to talk to her ... maybe ... i just want to talk to her ... its that simple ... but such a simply thing i can't achieve ... i asked her if she's okay is because i wanted to care for her ... but seems like i should stick to my own theory of not caring for anyone ... why ? ... i tried it plenty of times on so many ppl they just dun understand it or appreciate it ... thats how this cruel world is made up ... it is part of this world ... a world where caring doesn't work ... they should ban the cartoon carebears !!! ... its pointless since no one actually does that ...
i think i'll leave everything as it is ... maybe she really dun want to talk to me ... i shall remain silent so that everything doesn't get worse ... i'm not blaming her ... everyone is entitled to be unhappy ... to fustrate out their anger ... to do whatever they want or say whatever they want ... they are also entitled to ask ppl to do stuff its only up to us to see whether we want to do or not ... maybe its not meant to be ... maybe ...
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