bye bye to blogging for good ... i'm writing down everything i wanna say for a very long time here once and for all ... a life that is disaterous is not worth writing down or remembering ... i dun care anyway since no one fucking reads it ... its for my own personal rememberance in case one day i lose myself ... so might as well only write down the good parts and leave the bad parts out ... yes this decision is made in one day ... so many fucking bad things happen and i've given up hope in life ... living meaninglessly ... floating on the ocean with no direction to go ... i give up ... life is nth more than carrying on the journey ... what comes then come lor ... what goes then go lor ... i dun care ... life is dead ... i'm sick of everything ... and i'm getting more mentally sick ... i think i'll go bonkers sooner than predicted ...

but dun learn from me ... other ppl life is more interesting and better ... mine is boring ... i'm tired ... very tired ... i need a direction but i can't find one ... life is supposed to be joyful but shit happens and everything change ... your mindset changes ... everything ...

what happened ? ... 12 july 2006 sucks ... directly 1 mth after my bday ... good job ... but who cares anyway ... a chain of events on this date ... this FUCKING date !!! ...

remember this everyone ... love is the most wonderful thing that can happen on earth ... i dunno who the hell created it but its the best thing one can ever get ... i tell you ... if money can buy true love ... 99% of the ppl in the world would have bought it ... yes its that great ... so ... strive for a love that doesn't requires any money ... instead strive for a love that requires your heart only ...

see with your heart not your eyes ... feel with your heart not your judgment ... touch with your heart not your hands ...

and also this ... true memories is the most expensive thing on earth ... no matter how much you spend ... you still can't get it ... a woman the lives with a rich man dun get alot memories ... ironically ... a woman that follows a poor man gets the most wonderful memories ... why ? ... they experience more things together and learn to live by and with each other ...

memories can only be filled once in a lifetime ... treasure it well and never throw it away ... cause its not easy to find the same memories again (the first try is always the best one) ...

i also wanna thank the ppl of Horizontally Challenged United (SP flute section) ... for my bday celebration ... eventhough its quite belated but i dun mind ... its better than nth ... like the present and all the stuff ... a million thx ... its my first celebration with SP ppl (yes i'm pathetic) ...

why should we care when ppl dun care ? ... cause we must know how to take and give ... all humans are born to be caring ... but society change ppl into mindless zombies ...

cya all my fans ... sorry that i have come to this weak decision ... but too bad ... thats life ... accept it ... thx for the contribution of making my blog (a very little bit) more lively ...

since henry said my previous post was crappy so i'll make a more serious one today ... i was thinking about what vee said on my tagboard ... the song doesn't fit me ... hmmm ... i was wondering about things that fit ppl ... i agree with her that the song doesn't fit my present self ... the self that i show to most ppl ... but i have a hidden side ... a side where ppl didn't see before ...

i always show the crazy side of me ... where everythings looks okay and easy going ... it seems like i'm not easy to get hurt and everything ppl say i'm okay with it ... its like very shui bian ... thats the image i give ppl ... its a fake image of myself ...

i dun show my real self to ppl ... why ? ... cause its very vulnerable ... i showed it in secondary school and all i get is hurt ... i've learnt to keep that self when i left sec school ... i dun wanna be that vulnerable again ...

every night i'll be thinking ... thinking of so many things ... my fake image is kind of heartless and like very dun care ... i'm neither happy nor sad ... a very heck care image ... i got no feelings ... i brush aside alot of things ... alot things that ppl say i can just take it and forget it ... i dun bear grudges ... all thx to my actual self ... all thx to my past ...

my actual self is ... well ... contain more feelings ... i'm more caring ... but then life will be more sad ... i dunno why ... it comes together ... the hatred in me would also be increased ... i hated alot of things in the past ... and questioned everything ... why here why there ... why did she treat me like that ... why did he do that ... why is heaven playing around with me ... why why why ... i seem like a lost teenager ...

i wanna merge my actual and fake image together ... i did show my actual self to some girls only ... why ? ... dunno ... natural reaction ... i'm a peaceful guy :D ... and yes i did hate girls because of past experiences ... but then i can't hate them forever rite ... we guys need them ... we can't live without them ... this is how i learn not to hate alot of things that happen in life ... this is how i learn about ppl and why they did what the did ... an advise to all my blog fans ... learn to forgive and forget ... life is more than revenge and hatred ...

after years of intense training i finally mastered the art of feeding !!! ... i am now a true master ... bow to me muahahahaha ... beware feeders ... doom has come to this earth !!! ... whenever i go i'll be feeding on you all !!! wahahahahaha ...

what is feeding ... very simple ... feeding = eating ... but eat what ... eat unedible ice cream ... use what to eat ? ... i'm not so bo liao to write this post on normal eating rite ... of course its using something else to eat ... use what to eat ? ... dun tell you all ^^ ... open your eyes big big and you all will know what i feed on and what i use to feed ...

places i like to feed ... SP FC6 ^^ (wonderful place to feed ... good food and nice to eat ...) ... plaza sing (too good le this place ... everything also got ... can eat until full ...) ... bugis (yum yum ...) and of course cineleisure !!!!!! (best place le ... too much good food ... will eat until die ...) ...

very easy to know when i'm feeding ... one action and you know what i'm doing ... when i eat real food rite i'm also feeding at the same time ... but dun worry ... you can talk to me at the same time ... i can reply you and feed too ... normally i like to walk slowly to feed so that i can absorb everything !!! ... its a wonderful art !!! ... i treat it as something that i can enjoy doing ... cause the food are what they are meant to be ... eat and then throw out ...

yum yum ^^ ... more more !!! more food !!! ... feedddddddddddddddd ...