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life is precious ... enjoy it ... for there is only one you in the world ...

"isn't it great that i could pass on a dream that i had to give up?"

"for those people who are really listening, they will definitely understand"
07 July 2006
unravelling my secretive side ...
since henry said my previous post was crappy so i'll make a more serious one today ... i was thinking about what vee said on my tagboard ... the song doesn't fit me ... hmmm ... i was wondering about things that fit ppl ... i agree with her that the song doesn't fit my present self ... the self that i show to most ppl ... but i have a hidden side ... a side where ppl didn't see before ...

i always show the crazy side of me ... where everythings looks okay and easy going ... it seems like i'm not easy to get hurt and everything ppl say i'm okay with it ... its like very shui bian ... thats the image i give ppl ... its a fake image of myself ...

i dun show my real self to ppl ... why ? ... cause its very vulnerable ... i showed it in secondary school and all i get is hurt ... i've learnt to keep that self when i left sec school ... i dun wanna be that vulnerable again ...

every night i'll be thinking ... thinking of so many things ... my fake image is kind of heartless and like very dun care ... i'm neither happy nor sad ... a very heck care image ... i got no feelings ... i brush aside alot of things ... alot things that ppl say i can just take it and forget it ... i dun bear grudges ... all thx to my actual self ... all thx to my past ...

my actual self is ... well ... contain more feelings ... i'm more caring ... but then life will be more sad ... i dunno why ... it comes together ... the hatred in me would also be increased ... i hated alot of things in the past ... and questioned everything ... why here why there ... why did she treat me like that ... why did he do that ... why is heaven playing around with me ... why why why ... i seem like a lost teenager ...

i wanna merge my actual and fake image together ... i did show my actual self to some girls only ... why ? ... dunno ... natural reaction ... i'm a peaceful guy :D ... and yes i did hate girls because of past experiences ... but then i can't hate them forever rite ... we guys need them ... we can't live without them ... this is how i learn not to hate alot of things that happen in life ... this is how i learn about ppl and why they did what the did ... an advise to all my blog fans ... learn to forgive and forget ... life is more than revenge and hatred ...

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21. why do we live in the present ? ... because we want to experience the sweetness again ...
20. why do we live in the past ? ... because the sweetness lingers in our minds ...
19. i want to get ex-UIC out of mine mind but how can i do it ? ...
18. we care because we are alive ... because we have a heart ... (Chobits)
17. if he can't like you for what you are, he isn't "the person just for you" ... (Chobits)
16. i can't say i'm sad ... i can't say i'm happy ... i can only say i dunno what to feel ...
15. to love is such a wonderful thing ... people who love ... will never lose to people who don't ... (Drama)
14. deeper and deeper i go into space ... soon to enter the dangerous blackhole ... with no return unhurt ...
13. if you ask me if i miss UIC ... i'll say ... no ...
12. i dun call her ice cream cause she's not ice cream ... she's ... UIC ...
11. life is so strange ... it's not like anyone teaches you, but you end up falling in love ? ...
10. love as much as you want ... for it is a wonderful thing which only you can feel it ...
9. How I loved your peaceful eyes on me did you ever know that I had mine on you ...
8. there's a purpose and reason for everything that i do or say or write or type ...
7. i lost my heart so i can't feel my heart beat ... when i can feel it again ...
6. for one thing to live, another must die ... for one thing to love, another must hate ...
5. no matter what we do, we must see not with our eyes but with our heart ...
4. love or dependance ... ppl never know which is the one they have ... which is the one they need ...
3. love not for the sake of loving but love cause your heart tells you to ...
2. why do ppl have to come when they have to leave in the end ? ...
1. love is like a blackhole ... once you enter you can't get out without your heart shattered ...
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