bye bye to blogging for good ... i'm writing down everything i wanna say for a very long time here once and for all ... a life that is disaterous is not worth writing down or remembering ... i dun care anyway since no one fucking reads it ... its for my own personal rememberance in case one day i lose myself ... so might as well only write down the good parts and leave the bad parts out ... yes this decision is made in one day ... so many fucking bad things happen and i've given up hope in life ... living meaninglessly ... floating on the ocean with no direction to go ... i give up ... life is nth more than carrying on the journey ... what comes then come lor ... what goes then go lor ... i dun care ... life is dead ... i'm sick of everything ... and i'm getting more mentally sick ... i think i'll go bonkers sooner than predicted ...

but dun learn from me ... other ppl life is more interesting and better ... mine is boring ... i'm tired ... very tired ... i need a direction but i can't find one ... life is supposed to be joyful but shit happens and everything change ... your mindset changes ... everything ...

what happened ? ... 12 july 2006 sucks ... directly 1 mth after my bday ... good job ... but who cares anyway ... a chain of events on this date ... this FUCKING date !!! ...

remember this everyone ... love is the most wonderful thing that can happen on earth ... i dunno who the hell created it but its the best thing one can ever get ... i tell you ... if money can buy true love ... 99% of the ppl in the world would have bought it ... yes its that great ... so ... strive for a love that doesn't requires any money ... instead strive for a love that requires your heart only ...

see with your heart not your eyes ... feel with your heart not your judgment ... touch with your heart not your hands ...

and also this ... true memories is the most expensive thing on earth ... no matter how much you spend ... you still can't get it ... a woman the lives with a rich man dun get alot memories ... ironically ... a woman that follows a poor man gets the most wonderful memories ... why ? ... they experience more things together and learn to live by and with each other ...

memories can only be filled once in a lifetime ... treasure it well and never throw it away ... cause its not easy to find the same memories again (the first try is always the best one) ...

i also wanna thank the ppl of Horizontally Challenged United (SP flute section) ... for my bday celebration ... eventhough its quite belated but i dun mind ... its better than nth ... like the present and all the stuff ... a million thx ... its my first celebration with SP ppl (yes i'm pathetic) ...

why should we care when ppl dun care ? ... cause we must know how to take and give ... all humans are born to be caring ... but society change ppl into mindless zombies ...

cya all my fans ... sorry that i have come to this weak decision ... but too bad ... thats life ... accept it ... thx for the contribution of making my blog (a very little bit) more lively ...